Easier Said Than Done

My mother said to me: "Ang gaganda ng mga pinag-popost mo, na-aapply mo ba?" and whenever we have our kwnetohans "Ang galing mong mag-advice ah, bakit hindi mo magawa sa sarili mo?"

My answer: "Alam ko na lahat yan, narinig and natutunan ko na lahat yan, but it is easier said than done!"

It is true. After all self-reflections and constantly self-reflecting and questioning myself... after all the advice and learnings I have gained from my parents and aunties, and from friends, teachers, and books I have read, even movies I have watched... I feel like I know it all, or most... I still find some of them a struggle to apply, especially when I get in a negative mood.

Despite the struggles, I can proudly proclaim that I have grown, changed, learned, and developed as a human being (or alien), and still continue to do so. I can proudly proclaim that I am a perfectly imperfect human (or alien), continually trying to be the best version of herself whilst always stumbling and struggling. I can also proudly proclaim that despite it is still a long journey to my dream destination, I have already traveled far.

Despite the struggles, the hardships, and being uncomfortable... despite my default sate of being (lazy, procrastinator, and ningas kugon) most of the time, I will and must still choose growth; I will and must develop; I will and must still continue to learn; and I will and must still continue to be the best version of myself and achieve my dreams and goals in life --and be at the least okay and good in my life.